It’s official! I blame Joanna Gaines. (Insert sarcasm here) 😉
If y’all are a fan of Joanna and Chip Gaines’ show, Fixer Upper, like I am, then you know the magic that happens when they get their hands on a junky old mess of a house. They basically turn every home they renovate into my dream home. In the opening credits she says, “Do you have the guts to take on a fixer upper?” And before the red house, I did, for sure. It was an actual bucket list dream of mine; to get my hands on a neglected and forgotten old farmhouse and transform it into my own personal fixer upper dream home.
So, we did it. We had the guts to take on our little red house fixer upper…now the question is, “Do you have the guts to continue on with a fixer upper?” We are 6 months into the project and there is STILL no end in sight! All five of us have been crib crashing at my mom’s for just about a year now!!! I know! It’s mind boggling. Josh and I were talking the other day about how hard it was to move the kids away from the only home they’ve ever known in Rolesville, NC and now we are looking at the same challenge; in the sense that we, at some point will have to move the kids, again, from this new home they’ve known for the past year! We’re not sure what new emotional difficulties this will stir up in the kids, but we’ve recognized that they will be there in some form, so I think we’ll be more prepared for them when they show up.
The current financial/project payout deadline we have with buildPros and our lender is January 22nd. Our estimated project deadline given to us by buildPros was in early October! Although, it took our contractor that long just to apply for permits! Josh and I have come to a point of complete desperation and disappointment. We are ready to move on! This probably means pushing back our move in date even further; but we can’t give this guy any more time, money, or benefit of the doubt. Although, we’ve seen some work happening since contacting our advocates, it is moving along at a snails pace. They’ve never even put in one full day or full week of work! After I drop Jaxon at school, I usually stop by the house, pick up our mail and hang around until 9:15 or so, to see if anyone shows up. Never. Not once, has anyone been working at our house before 9:30 (maybe later) or after 4 pm. Also, some the recent work they’ve completed is not up to code and must be redone or adjusted.
The biggest visual change so far is thanks to Josh and my step-brother Justin! Last weekend they took down the wall and chimney dividing the dining room and the kitchen. It looks awesome and awful all at once! The possibilities beam through the openness and at the same time, its got a looooong way to go. Exciting and scary fighting for attention when you see it!
Check it out!
With every challenge life throws my way, I try to look at it through biblical eyes…try being the optimum word there. I’m having trouble seeing God’s plan in all this, and trusting He’ll have a way to see us through. I have to remind myself that even though God is there, it doesn’t mean mistakes can’t be made. Wrong turns can be taken, but He is always there to lean on for strength during and after the wrong turns and mistakes. And He is always able, if we allow it, to use every mishap or misfortune in life to make us stronger, wiser, and more like Him. It’s the oh so familiar, “God, how, why, did you let this happen?” Our money is running out, our time has run out long ago, and our family is displaced and frustrated.
Yes, I know, this is not the absolute worst thing that can happen. No one is sick or dying, we are not homeless or in a refugee camp. I realize this is small potatoes on the scale of things that could happen or go wrong in a drastic, life changing way. I also realize we are incredibly blessed in every corner of this life we’ve built together. This acknowledgement, however, does not detract from the helplessness we are feeling.
So, back to the drawing board! We are interviewing a new slew of contractors…hopefully honest, trustworthy, reliable, and competent people who care about their business, reputation, and the families they work for. Is that asking too much? If only I could get Chip and Joanna Gaines to take over!! Is that asking too much?…probably on that one it is. 😉
Til’ next time, be blessed!