After I dropped Jaxon, my oldest, at school a couple days ago I had a dentist appointment. (I know…we all spend more time at the dentist than anyone in the world I think!) The appointment was scheduled for about an hour after Jax got to school. What to do with that time? I decided to go to a local coffee shop, Junk & Java in Westerly, to work on my book (that I’ve been writing for 597 years) and get a latte. My mom kept the little two with her so I was completely alone…which doesn’t happen too often with three wee ones!
As I approached this vacant hour, I saw it initially as an hour I had to waste. Later on, I told my sister, I had an hour to “kill”. This is an ongoing problem with me; the way in which I look at every precious moment we get here. I consistently see time as something to pass until some other thing arrives that I’ve been waiting for…even the dentist apparently!! I routinely miss the opportunities in the present moment, since I’m too busy waiting for the next one.
I had a whole hour! All to myself!! How was I not seeing this as a complete gift and a perfect time to slow down, relax, and focus on…anything or nothing at all! It was an opportunity to actually live out, in practice that “small town vibe” I talk about so much. I had some time to spend in exploration of our town a bit, check out a local establishment and mingle amongst people who live where I live…or will live, hopefully, eventually, someday. 😉 (Check out the little red house reno) Retrospectively I did enjoy it. It was calm and peaceful and relaxing. The trick is to recognize these things as they arise, so I can see the magnitude in the moment. Some might say, “So, you said you had an hour to ‘kill’, big deal, its just a word.” But I couldn’t disagree more. Words have weight. They can strengthen or weaken any point of view, position, or intention. And it is the specific words I use that reflect my specific emotions or focus. If instead I said, I had an hour to ‘enjoy’ or even to ‘spend’, this would have indicated an entirely different frame of mind. Enjoying or spending an hour assigns worth to that irreplaceable, invaluable time, as well as the activity, or even inactivity; which can be equally as important sometimes. 😉
I’d like to start seeing the immeasurable value in every minute I have, as well as the substance held in each moment. I think that starts with language. “I have an hour to spend.” Changing the words I use, changes my approach to life…which is really just a big accumulation of each precious tick of the clock. It sounds like simple semantics, but its all about a changing heart; an adjustment in approach. Matthew 12:37 says, “…for by your words you will be justified, and by your words you will be condemned.” Also, Proverbs 18:21 says, “From the fruit of a man’s mouth his stomach is satisfied; he is satisfied by the yield of his lips.” These two passages exemplify the power in language. The words we choose are the main, and sometimes only instrument we have in communicating the direct intention of our hearts. They have the ability to convey or reveal (sometimes to ourselves) our outlook or perspective on all things; even something seemingly minor or so easily taken advantage of like our time.
Just like a word, this change is small, but can mean something big in my life. We’ll see! I’m just going to try. Maybe the act of speaking value into each moment will be the thing that helps me capture more of the beauty. (As I catch a glimpse of my 2 year old, Braedon playing peek-a-boo with me from behind a table. There it is. True beauty in the moment.)
Til’ next time, be blessed!